Written at: 9:43 PM
today was a very very good day!!!
hahax...
1) full marks for geo timed assignment!!!
2)i passed napfa!!!
3) i finally passed standing boarh jump!!!
HAHAX...
i juz cant believe it lors..
standing board jump i hardlye pass on lehs..
hehe...
omg...im so happy today!!
n i was quite crazy...haha..
but then, as compared to wad i was lyk i 6I, today was very mild alr...lols...
i did 22 pull-ups n 37 sit-ups! woots!
hahax...
then geo test gt full marks.
nvr thot wil get tt mark...
okay okay things
is th maths exam...first Q very weird lehs...
but i juz guess a answer. tink working wil at least get mi some marks.. :)
bad ones are
chinese n MEP..
mep i tink i fail alr...omg...cant believe i fail music..a subject tt i lyk...
haiz...but stil gt project as backup!
chinese i realli deproved alot lehs..
nt goin to say hw much but i was very very dissapointed wif myself...
even lower than th ave.range i tink..
compo alr lyk tt then paper surely oso nt gd ders..
plus th project nw dun even noe finish or nt...
haiz..omg..since when my chinese became so lan?!
anyways, dun care abt all those lers..
today is a overall happy day!
dun think abt those things...
船到桥头自然直。:)
frm today onwards its 2 mths to final yr..
im goin to improve n score in final yr..
so everyday startin frm tmr wil do
chinese, maths n mep.
eng n lit is okay...
then geo n his im better n lyk th subject so dunid so much time on it!
tmr goin to library!
hahax...drink starbucks n read books!
goin to th library is so much better than goin to borders...
cus borders u look at th bk very nice but then when look at th price
than very...er...'damn it' kinda feeling..hahas..
at least when go library can borrow. =D
n ya! frm nw on practise cello 1 time a wk..
its little but dunnoe, to miie its enuh alr... XP
goin to slp lers!
gd night everybody!
ps. i tink im becomin a nerd...
omg...
i wana meetup soon n xiao again!!
Written at: 6:49 PM
omg...i stil cant calm dwn over
th chinese n MEP.
chinese is my best subject...
th subject tt helps pukk my average up...
omg...
i nd to concentrate on others....
ok,gonna study others n stop thinkin abt these two subjects.
muz choing for exams!
choing for maths, lit n sci, n MEP!
6.6
Written at: 2:35 PM
omg....
today is very very bad!!
my chinese!!
i tink im gonna fail
all tt hardwork for nth...
omg..when th teacher say left 5 min i stil left 3 questions lehs!!
ahhs!! in th end finished but i noe i was writing crap...
god!!
then gt back SW compo paper...
20/30?? its lower than my practise...
all cus of my grammer....haiz..
then in MEP i dun even noe a single thing!
dunnoe hw to do th mock test then gt alot wrong somemore..
after tt received back practical..
b4 tt i noe i passed but pass by1 mark onli????
other ppl can get until 30 plus. omg... i thot i cud do much more better than tt
practised so much....
tt time i nervous lahs...but i thot it was okay wad?
even huayee says so...
sci i dun understand.
n test is nxt wk!
its similar to mths but nd to write alot of extra things too!
nxt wk gt alot of tests!
eng, geo, history, maths, sci, MEP
eng, geo, history n maths i noe hw to revise n is halfway lers..
but sci n MEP i dunnoe hw....
then MEP gt so much things to memorise..
n its nxt wed!
omg.. i wish all these can juz blank out frm my mind...
wish smt thing happen then dun hav to take all these CAs...
stressful lahs!
n later gt audition...
nw th room lock so cant practise...
later th conductor points to me n i cant play a single note!
shit....
my life is so screwed up! so damn stressful lahs!
even until nw i oso wil ask my self
if i tt time stayed in haising, wud it b better....
i dun feel lyk studynig ler!
but at least tmr meeting 6I.
miss u all alot...
see u al tmr bahs..
Written at: 10:40 AM
omgomg...
so nercous for tmr!!
ahhs!
when i go through my past HCL papers
its lyk another person doin it lehs!!
omg! my chinese realli deprove alot lers!!
tmr muz get A.
shit lahs.
anyways today concert nt goin.
MISS INSANITIES!!!
THURS WANA GO BACK? TO MBS?
PPL IN PASIR RIS CAN GO TO INTERCHANGE TO TAKE BUS TO MBS.
THEN IN MARINE PARADE DERS CAN TAKE 40 OR 135 TO MBS.
OR WANA MEET THEN GO TGT?
MISS U ALL ALOT!!!!!
btw, hu can make "appointment" wif any of th teachers?
ir nt th stupid n fat guard wont let us go in der.
hehe...
see u all on thurs!
=D
Written at: 8:58 PM
yo ppl!!
finally i hav th time to post...
or rather, hav th mood to post...lol...
last few days gt CCAs
then nd to study alot cus gt alot of tests comin up!!
nxt week gt eng,geo,chi
nxt nxt week gt MATHS(omg..!!!) n MEP
very stressed lahs!!
omg.. esp maths n chinese
maths is cus i realli damn wana improve
n chinese is cus i muz get A1 tis term!! cant be pulled dwn by project!! do muz work extra hard!!
eng is juz spelling so memorize can lers..
MEP i alot dun understand!! but can ask piano teacher! :)
geo quite easy, onli 1 topic!
hahax...create a list of exams tt are comin up..
so many up ther realli feel very stressed but as u cancel out each one, the feeling is super
shuang de!! hehe...
then nxt week gt audition for string...lyk hu to sit infront n all tt...
seniors sure sit infront de lahs...but oso nd to practise. if nt later sit in front of th teacher then play nth or play until very lan then very embarrasing...lol...
anyways th eng compo n history exam went very smoothly! woots!
okay...stop toking abt exams n stuff alr...
hate studying!!
anyways, weiwen n yq b-day juz passed!
gave weiwen her pressie but yq haven yet. cus she gt batminton then i oso gt CCA then no time to meet. wana give her personally. :P
hahax.. weiwen said she lyk th present! im sooo happy tt she lyked it!! hahas...
very sianz n tired these days.. wana meet up wif frens!!!
but later scared no time to study...boohoo....
feel very tired these days.. oso dunnoe y..
but anyways!!!
im not sad abt th maths thing anymore!
seriously cant believe i cried over tt.... its juz a test.....a failure tt i hav to learn from! =D
wana tok to my JIEs lehs...
everytime call da-jie then she oso busy...
--------------------------------------------blahblahblah----------------dunnoe wad to write------------------------------
hahas....wil concentrate on my studies more ders!!
n for goodness sake lahs..
im nt becoming a nerd.. "=.=
juz doin th rite thing at th rite time!
i miss my frens!!
after final yr i wana go crazy again!!
scream around TM...in th neoprint shop n play wif food at MCdonalds!!hahax....
LOVE ALL INSANITIES!!!!!!!! REALLI MISS U ALL ALOT!!!!!!! MEET UP SOON!!!!! <33
Written at: 5:34 PM
father juz came bak n said
'if u do ur best can lers.. nxt time do better .etc."
i guess they r nt angry...
but i feel so damn guilty...
lyk i dissapoint them alrd....so if they encourage mi or whatsoever,
i will cry.... :(
i tink my depression is seriously comin bak ler....
nw if u tok to mi abt maths or ask mi my result or
encourage mi i wil cry one lors..
even if u tok to mi i oso dun feel lyk replyin so nvr sign in to msn...
im seriously crazy lers..
omg...last time IF i gt this kinda result(i NEVER gt so low lastime!)
i wil so scared tt parents wil nag n scold
then nw even they nt angry i still very sad lors....
dunno wad mother will say later... i dun feel lyk facin her oso....wish she come bak late bahs...
nw if u try to cheer mi up or tok to mi i will stil cry lor..i noe i siao liao...
later mayb i go out watch TV eat dinner or wadever...
infront of them i may put up a very strong appearence
but in my mind i will always feel lyk cryin...
sad luhs... i oso dunnoe wad happened to mi ler
Written at: 3:59 PM
OH MY GOD
i cant believe it!
"can u mind ur language n act lyk a older sister?"
wth?!
my mood is alr damn bad alr kay???
in bus im tryin so much nt to cry lers
thot come home will b better
but it TURNED OUT VERY VERY WORSE.....
nobody in this hse cares about mi
its always her
always she is correct...
i alr tell her i nd to use th com for hw alr
she still go n used right in front of my nose?
hello? she gt so much time b4 i come bak frm sch?
if she has time to play until so badly on th piano
hw come she has no time to use th com?
omg omg...
n b lyk a older sis?????
i bet they alr noe im cryin alr lahs...
then i shout at her for dunnoe hw many times then she get out of my room?!
omg..omg manxz....this sucks!
nw shes laughing outside n playin wif th maid alr....
n me?
im still in my pathetic room cryin until my tears r dry
omg...
she juz have to do it isint it?
do it to see me suffer isit??
everytime she uses callin my parents to threaten mi...
she super realli suck okay?
i dun even give a damn to it!
n th maid is very irratin oso???? shes deaf isit????
anyway i locked th room alr
put th wardrobe there against th wall
cus even if i cry my lungs out, no one will even CARE to ask WHY
i dun tink i wana go out n see their UGLY n UNCARING face ANYMORE.
Written at: 10:47 AM
omgomg....
i onli gt 21half for th maths lehs...
omg...
hw?
feel so damn dissapointed...
work so hard lers oso no use
no use lahs...
omg..
i gt so many careless mistakes
omg i hate it
my maths realli sux
work so hard ler still get tis kinda marks
im so STUPID n PATHETIC
i had never choing so hard ever since PSLE
then nw stil lyk tt?
omg..
thot can get 27 or higher
even if i get 25 oso can
i was aiming for a B onli
then stil lyk tt...
omg
im such a failure
brokedwn in recess..
i start choinging lyk 2 weeks ago
then stil lyk tt?
other ppl can juz study 1 night b4
n get so high?
omg.
hw to tell parents n tuition teacher?
i thot it was okay der...
hw?
maths suck manzx!
n i am so stupid lahs!
but even if i hate it so much i stil muz study it...
omg
i hate these things
everything suck!
i hate it lahs...
since when did i so care abt my results?
last time i get 60+ i oso nvr cry..
th onli time i cried is cus of chinese..
y do i even care so much nw?
i can feel my depression comin back
feel lyk skipin sch tmr...
i hate it manzx.......i've let dwn alot of ppl...
Written at: 3:36 PM
I DUN LYK MY CHINESE TEACHER!!!
IM GONNA FAIL MY ZUOWEN!!!!!
omg!!!
today gt zuowen test then i write until very long
until no time.
then my ending is:
我觉得可丽对我很好，我希望我们的友情能天长地久.
so diao rite?!!
actually i wana write th 一朝被蛇咬，十年怕井绳。but no time!!!
ahhs!!! omg....in front th startin i used alot of jiaju then th ending end lyk tt?!
shud hav dun stop n continue writing lahs!!! boohoo!!!
n i notice my chinese teacher cant teach de lehs...
yesterday,1 day b4 exam she oso nvr revise wif us hw to write compo or
give us some gd compo/sentences to help us. juz go through th textbk n etc.
then since yr start,
she nvr give us any jiaju or gd compo one lehs!!
mayb cus tkgs is nt SAP sch lyk MBS but huayee tampines primary oso gt give!!!
my teacher everyday is onli teach frm textbk onli de...
omg...n chinese is nt if u hardworking then can score de..
its by LISTENING, talking n reading.... :(
n today MEP practical...
i gt mistakes!! n th piano sucks!!! still day wad best piano...lol...
mayb its new lahs...but doesnt mean its th best..... :(
anyways, TMR GOIN TO NOE TH RESULTS OF TH MATHS TEST!!!!!
omg!!! ms tay say gt 6 fail, some improved n suprised her blahblahblah.....
i wana improve!!! i work so hard lehs!!! if i fail then i tink im gona cry in class le.... XD
today went to MAHA BODHI!!! MY DEAREST SCH!!!! to fetch my sister...
bought her donuts so she nt so angry abt i bein late lahs..
hahas...
omg, the guard very duo guan xian shi lehs...
see wadever oso wana scold..
i was standing at gate 5 there then he stare at mi n ask mi
hu u looking for? (in a very annoyed n demanding manner)
so rude lahs...... im there to fetch my sis BUT
im oso a ex-student lehs!!!! nxt time teachers day go bak n he lyk tt again im so gona complain!
hmph!
big news!!!
MY SIS ART TEACHER IS LAI LAO SHI!!!!!
YAY!!!! omg!!! hehe...
my sis say lailaoshi art very gd..
but we nvr see her draw b4... O.O
anyways, tt means i can ask my mei to give things to her!!
hehe....
recently i learn hw to fold stars.
mayb i for 1 bottle for lailaoshi too!! :D
ooo...n monday pq n xc came my hse to "study"
hahas....we nvr even study lahs...
watched taking 5 tgt n we were playin on th sofa...
pushing n tickling each other!
hahas...
n after th movie, i lyk CLICK FIVE!!! but y th eric dill leave....too bad... :(
so....er...nw have to do maths n eng...
TA-TA!!!
:P
Written at: 11:17 PM
i dunnoe wads wrong wif them...
i thot when i sick they are suppose to care?
nt to nag nag nag n make
me shout my lungs off?
i thot when she come back will hug mi ders..
im afterall still a child okay??
wads wrong wif her/them?
y they keep scoldin mi n nagging?
its nt that i wana b sick oso rite?
argh! i hate it lahs!!!
my health alr torturing mi alr still muz b sad n angry over THESE kinda things..
sucky.... :/
Written at: 10:41 PM
SICK SICK SICK....
ahhs...
gt flu,sore throat,fever n Diarrhea lehs...
omg.....sick is very bad...
yucks! i feel so useless n nth to do except flooding myself wif medicine..
haiz...n i oso dun noe y i sick....i zui jin on diet then oso nvr touch any oily/fried food....
then become lyk tt lers...today whole day at sch feel tt my mind is VERY blocked...
then take temp. is onli 37.4
when eat lunch oso very tired...i almost slept in art..
called jm but no one pick up...
i thot she gt bak her phone alr????
anyways, after ring for a few times i gua lers...
cus i oso dunnoe wad to tok abt..haiz...
very lllooonngggg nvr talk to 6I frens ler... :(
but when i come home n take its 38.9 lehs!!!! omg...i was very very shocked oso...
n ytd when mother say wana give mi medicine i say no nd cus my temp is 37.2....
my thermometer spoil lahs!!!! n it almost make mi faint in school lehs!!!!
omg.......anyways, nw i feel more energetic alr.....but my temp is still..
err....w8 ahs i take 1st....
WOOTS!!!! GONE DOWN!!!! 37.5!!! yays!!
then tmr gt project...i oso haven mention to parents yet n i see i tmr mornin still vrey restless or nt....i HATE projects lor...
n i hate th chinese exam system in tkgs...
other than th paper n zuowen, other marks are from the project and file...
FILE?! its so damn stupid! i cant believe a FILE can help u get abt 10% of the marks....
is their standard too low isit?! omg....then those who work realli hard get pull down because of a file?
n project i dun wana care alr lahs.....seen other grp de alrd....ours, i tink sucks...
anyways, im going to work very hard for the paper n zuowen
im soooo nt going to be pulled down because of a file(???!!!) n a stupid project... :(
the maths CA went quite well
except the construction....i lost 3 marks alrd!!! boohoo!!!!
all because i could not understand ONE question n others oso lose marks...
but i get a B i very happy alr...i dun realli expect alot from maths actually...
the ones that i wana aim in gettin high marks are MEP,HCL,geo n history...
today so weird..brought cello to sch n climb 3 flight of stairs with it
then nvr go string n brought it home...
today is to choose the 30 ppl playing for the australians visit...
actually, i dun even care bahs...they sure wll choose the seniors de...
so go there oso no use...
anyways, hols start on 28 october....
vian b-day lehs! hahas...
smsed weiwuduzuns abt goin bak to perform thing...
but absolutely NO ONE replied
except yq hu asked mi to call her...but i nvr cus i sick....
either they all
1)very busy no time?(cus of exams?)
2)dun even care to reply??
3) or all of them de phone oso confiscated....lol...
i recover alr then call them n ask bahs....still a long time...
nw is exam period n everyone oso nd to concentrate...
so my youth day is all planned out!!!
mornin gt maths tuition wif XC n weiwen n siying!!! :D
then after tt XC n siying comin my hse to study!!!
after tt gt piano,
then can watch taking five!!
n at night i finally can watch superband cus tuition changed to mornin!!
hehes...
but i oso gt alot of uncompleted hw...
bad bad mie...
the 6I blog lyk dead ler...
mayb i tmr go n update bahs...
ok! gtg! I WANA RECOVER!!! byebyes!! :D
